I received some thoughtful and beautiful replies to my post The world’s worst blogger:
You can’t do blogging wrong because there’s no right way. — Nick
Don’t hurry with it all, take it one step at a time. — AlpinePixel
I wouldn’t shame yourself. You’re just trying out what works for you… — Alexandra
I appreciate you sharing your struggles. I struggle with what I want this space to be for me. — Kimberly
Just play and explore. — David
Thank you all! I really appreciate it, it means a lot.
Then there was one comment that resonated with me on a deeper level. One that I’ve been returning to again and again this past week…
These words by Gunnar:
You’re too hard on yourself. Can’t you just let go of your ambitions and take it for what it is?
The keyword for me is ambitions. I’m haunted by it. Whatever I set out to do, the ambitions are always there — and not in a good way.
At first, it feels exciting. But it quickly becomes too much to handle, and I lose interest. In the end, that loss of interest is really just my mind telling me that I can’t keep doing it at that level.
It’s been like this for as long as I can remember, and I’m not entirely sure why. I have my theories, and others have had theirs. But in the end, it’s mostly a guessing game, isn’t it?
And maybe that’s the point: we don’t always need to know why. Being aware of what’s going on is already a big step forward. We catch ourselves before falling over.
Personally, I feel I’ve gotten much better at this lately (even if it might not look that way when I keep sharing my blogging doubts). But believe me, three years ago this blog would’ve been long gone.
I’m thankful it’s still here, and I’m deeply grateful for everyone who keeps reading.
Thank you!