Choosing writing

I just finished writing a blog post I won’t publish.

It was about how I’d decided to also use my blog for posting photos and shorter “status updates”. But as soon as I had finished the text, I realized I won’t do it. Or rather, I can’t do it.

I’ve tried it before, but it’s never really felt right.

I used to think it was about not wanting to flood readers with all kinds of content. That’s part of it, sure, but not the main reason.

I also thought it might be because I personally prefer a clean blog instead of a mix of everything. Again, somewhat true, but not the heart of it.

Then it hit me: what it’s really about is a fear of not being enough. More content means more comments.

It’s not that I don’t like comments or emails. Quite the opposite. What I don’t like is feeling incapable of following up properly.

I want to be able to interact without feeling pressed for time. I want to reply without it all piling up into something I can’t manage.

I want to write blog posts. I kind of want to post other things too, but that doesn’t come with the same pull as writing.

In the end, it’s not about limiting myself. It’s about focusing on what matters most. Writing is the one part I never want to let go of.